So back in Vegas two days before leaving to New York, somewhere between rolling around in the giant pile of clothes I had been avoiding to pack (it's hard trying to stuff your closet into 2 suitcases, yo) I had to urge to center myself. Knowing how I work, I knew there would be some point of panic or an inevitable hard time, I was moving across the country after all! So after writing letters to people close to me, I ended up writing a letter to myself. A gentle reminder of why I am here, how I got here, and to keep going with all my might.
Needless to say that letter got LOST.
I kept it in my closet at my first sublet, and ever since then, it has been lost in the abyss.
Anyway, I've been having a hard time lately. I mean, when is it NOT a hard time during your first winter in your new home lol. But a lot has been happening, and it's very easy to get overwhelmed here.
Last night I was organizing and getting ready for a bunch of auditions today, preparing headshots and what not. And I come across....
It's funny how things show up when you need them most.
Idk what this post was supposed to be about, but I'm just stoked on reading that letter. May 2017 me sure did know exactly what to say to March 2018 me! I've been looking for help in all the wrong places and all I had to do was look inside. Cheesy as it sounds, it's so true.
So I guess, the point of this post. Write yourself a letter for when times get hard. It's really helpful. I thought about writing it all on here, but I overshare like a motherfucker and I think this is one of those things that should be kept to myself. So I tucked my letter back into that envelope and I... hid it again! To be found the next time I need it. The exact words I needed to hear from the one person I needed to hear them from.