I'm sitting at work staring at the window while the snow falls. I do like the snow, it's beautiful, but dear goodness I miss the sun!
The biggest news is... I have representation now!!! Yay!!! It happened very recently, a series of events just leading up to it, and I am glad to say I am with GS Entertainment, with a bicoastal manager. It all started at the Cannes Film Festival when I was working for the American Pavilion, so once again I am so very thankful for that trip. We've just gotten settled and it's such an interesting relationship, I am so glad my manager is so sweet and patient with me while guiding me--I tend to ask a lot of questions and apologize too much (something I am working on lol).
At the moment I'm doing the same ol' routine. Auditioning, submitting for castings, improv classes, working. I just started taking acting and audition classes and meeting with casting directors, so that's fun! I love the world I'm in, and I love the kindness and honestly of the people that I meet in this field, so going to classes and just being an actor in the world is very fueling for the heart. I've been doing a lot of reading, re-studying the things I read in school and a few new ones. I'm submitting for things I would have never had the ladyballs to submit to before. Something I'm trying to tell myself is that if it scares me, I should do it. Most of the most amazing things that I have done I was terrified to do. I'm also working on in general believing in myself more, because I'm a dope bitch, and I should embrace it. Hahahahaha.
I'm reading a lot of writing and am working on a few scripts of my own. I sit at this desk for hours at a time while I'm at the hotel, might as well make some use of my time! I'm writing a few one woman shows, each very very different, but my goal is to put something up in SoloCon at The PIT-a solo show festival in November.
I've learned a lot about myself and who I am as an artist and everything. I'm very superstitious about my endeavors and tend to not talk about much that I'm doing. I'm not sure if that's a bad thing or not, because it sounds like I'm not doing anything or keeping to myself too much, but I'm not going to overthink it. Ha. (In this blog I actually mention goals and stuff, so at least that's a step! I often put them in the universe, but in my own little world)
I was told that I'm burning the candle at both ends, a phrase that my mother would often tell me as well. I'm trying to spend more time grounding myself and finding a routine that I can stick to. This career can get super chaotic, so its nice to have a routine to stick to. Financially, it's been a journey. There are a few bumps in the road, but it's nothing I can't handle. I am queen of Excel spreadsheets and money management--something I am quite proud of! Between taking more shifts at work, classes, acting and having a life, it's been pretty chaotic. But I'm learning a balance. It's really nice being signed, it puts a healthy pressure on me to be a better person overall in my career and my personal life.
I have a lot of projects I'm working on, I'm excited to be able to put them up. For now, I won't say much about the stuff I'm working on (because I'm superstitious haha), but they're just projects. That's the thing about living in a city of opportunity, there's so much of it. It takes a lot of concentration to stick to what you say you'll do and follow through with it.
So far, 2018 has been full of learning and growth. I'm thankful to be in this city--so so so fucking thankful--and I'll work my ass off no matter how hard it gets.
Oh! And a friend emailed me recently, telling me of her story at a Cirque show and how it inspired her to write a clown script and she thought of me. Things like that make me really happy. Comedy is so fulfilling for your soul and the best kind of therapy for both entertainer and audience. I miss clown a lot and I want to incorporate it into more work that I do. But that email made me so gosh darn happy. I love my friends.
Honestly, the only reason I have a deep hatred of cold weather is because I CAN'T WEAR MY FUCKING DRESSES IN THE WINTERTIME. I MISS FLORAL, MAN. I MISS IT A LOT.
Sorry. Unexpected outburst.
I hope you day is as great as you are. :)